I SURVIVED!

Hello!

It's hard to believe it, but I am still alive. Yes, I neglected my blog for a VERY long time, but I promise you it was all worth it. Read on to understand why!



If you're a regular reader here, you most likely have heard my pityful attempts to transfer into my dream course. Over and over you heard me blab about how I was going to make it this time, and my repeated failures. Well over the last semester I have taken an entirely differrent approach.

I'm not sure it classified as living. I existed in a dark dark cave of learning. All there was to my life was study study and more study. I rarely ventured out of this cave into the real world. Nope, no time for that. I felt my brain expand and swell with so so so many memorised facts. The only comfort was knowing that these sacrifices would have to be worth something great in the end . . . hopefully.

All of a sudden time flashed by. It was already final exam time. I had achieved excellent grades throughout the semester, I would not ruin all my efforts at the very end. If possible, life got even more hectic. I quizzed myself with flash cards on an entire semester's worth of information, and could recite it all. Humans rarely interacted with me in this hostile volatile state. I worried that I was over-studying, and what if my brain turned to spagghetti and meatballs in the exam. What if I forgot eveything!?

There was only one way to find out.

I had two exams and one large essay. I entered the exam and went into a world of my own. Into a bubble trance, I blocked the other students out and unloaded everything I had learnt. My arms were whirlwinds trying to write all the information down in the short time. I think I super saiyaned and if I was a Pokemon, I may have evolved. Everything was double, triple checked and finally it was time to finish. I walked out of the exam room into the sunshine.

Immediately all the stored information in my brain was released. Poof! I forgot everything in a flash and noticed the world around me. I was happy, manic perhaps. People around me gave me strange looks. I was experiencing real life again and it was great!

However, this carefree joy only lasted so long.

It was the moment. I had waited up all night until midnight to get my GPA grade release. Had I really aced those exams? Was I going to just miss out on my dream, yet again? The entire house slept, including my new found boyfriend beside me (oops, forgot about him during exam time!). I couldn't wake anyone up, but this was the MOST important moment of my last two years. My phone buzzed.

A message from UQ Grades. I almost didn't want to open it and make it reality. I think I was going to be sick!

I'm not sure if they were happy or sad tears at first, but everything lit up and my stomach dropped. I achieved the highest possible grade for all my subjects, 7's. I wish I could say I was proud of myself at that moment, but to be brutally honest, it still doesn't feel like this is my life. This is the goal I've been working for ever since high school, and now . . . I've finally done it? Life feels awfully empty and strange when that one sole goal that always seemed so distant is finally achieved. What on earth do I do now!?

Wait. More waiting. January 17th I will yet again be waiting up all night to recieve the message that will accept me into veterinarian science. It's going to be another nervous wait, but for once, it shouldn't be fruitless.

Thank you faithful readers for waiting with great patience. Give yourselves a little pat on the back because I drew happyness from knowing you are out there! Look, you helped me achieve this too. I guess I owe you guys some more blogs to read over the university holidays then.

Happy Happy Christmase everybody!